So lately, I have been doing some deep thinking on some issues that I would like to tackle to make my life better; to make me a better person, to make myself more healthy, to allow myself to have a life that has more meaning. But, I have been scared. Well, I am not even sure that scared would be the right word. More like defeated. Defeated before I ever got started. Sort of sad right?
We took a quick weekend trip this weekend to celebrate my husband’s 51st birthday. Went to Mount Airy NC to see “Mayberry” from the old tv show “Andy Griffith”. After a day of sightseeing, we went to the hotel. My husband and youngest daughter, Tori, were swimming in the hotel’s pool, and I walked outside to smoke a cigarette (one of the things on my to-do list). Another thing on my to-do list is to give up soft drinks. Come to think of it, most of my list is to give something up. Apparently, I have an addictive personality. It’s scary. It’s terrifying to me. I know it sounds silly, but the thought of no sodas and no cigarettes just scares me. And I try to ignore it and keep on chugging and puffing away. Though I know it is so very unhealthy for me!
So, as I walk through the lobby, I notice a big, good-looking glass jug of water with slices of lemon floating around in it. Yum! I ask the clerk if she has made this lemonade herself. She informs me that is just lemon water. No sugar? I quickly pass by it. No way am I drinking just lemon water.
I sit outside for awhile smoking and playing on facebook. Coming back into that lobby, I notice that jug again. It looks so cold and so refreshing! Even the evenings of a 90 degree plus day in the South are no joke! Ok, I am just going to try it. I pour myself a small cup and…
This stuff is great! I mean its really great. In the end, I drink it the rest of the evening. This morning, I go right back to it. My body adjusts so easily. This stuns me. The ease that my body has switching from sugar filled soft drinks to healthy, fruit filled water just stuns me. My soda addicted brain, in the end, is no match for my body and what it knows is best for it. I am amazed.
Then, I do some deep thinking on the smoking issue. I know this will be much more difficult than simply switching from soda to water. This will be a task. Then, I realize. I realize in a single instant that the only reason these tasks seem so daunting to me at all is that I am trying to do them on my own. Which brings us back to the to-do list and the number one item on it. Have more faith. Strengthen my relationship with my Savior. Pray more. Study His word more. Be with Him more. Something I desperately need and want to do.
Which leads me to the realization that I need to stop thinking so much, stop all this planning and trying to keep control over these things, and just jump in head first and do them. All of them. From number one to number ten. Actually, just number one. If I do number one, then all the rest will just fall into place. Somehow, I know this.
Phillippians 4:13. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. All means all. Having more faith, making my life more positive, making it have more meaning, and yes, even switching from sodas to water. All things. From big to small. All. All means all.
Perhaps one of the most productive weekends I will ever have in my life!